Ignorance

I realized I've really changed a lot. I guess I'm more mean, irritating, easily annoyed. It's like I've changed for the worst. Like wow someone's comment today really struck me 'I wanna gorge out your evil heart'. I mean the person was kidding but it wasn't a joke to me. God damn it I really do see the difference in myself but I cannot help it. But I guess I needa stop and take baby steps to improve myself. I don't wanna be an asshole I don't wanna hurt people even if others have been hurting me. I just don't wanna be the one hurting others with words. I mean I can be really mean and I mean it. I consciously say really crude stuff about this person without even considering how much I've hurt him making him insecure, lowering his esteem I don't know I just know im being mean FML.

And lately I've been swearing so so much I don't know I guess the f word is best to describe certain feelings. I don't mean I say it out loud but subconsciously I'm swearing.

And I'm such a bad friend I know I know I know.

And to you who think you're damn cute, stop confusing me.